Yeah,

The past few days have sucked, I feel very numb?
I just don't feel the need to do anymore. I don't feel the need to feel anymore.
I am so dissatisfied, uncomfortable, discontent in my own body.
My relationship (or lack there of) has taken over my insides.
I'm not really analyzing anything. I'm just accepting. Plain and simple.
I feel like nothing outside of this affects me, even slightly.

I read an interview today with Barack Obama
He rules.


The only music I listen to is Fiona Apple. And it gives me a really *satisfying uncomfortable feeling inside. I need something new

My time is so consumed with everything. I never have a break. Between meetings with photographers, work at the cafe, fall semester starting soon. Ay. I have a photoshoot in a couple weeks. And I move into my new apartment next week.

Last night I grabbed some dinner at Whole Foods by myself coming home from a meeting, and while sitting there these 3 guys asked me why I was eating alone and told me I should brush my hair. Okay. Afterwards I walked down his street on my way home. His bike was parked outside and his bedroom light was on. It didn't make me feel better or worse.


Something has to give. Whether its me or him